Random Thoughts

How do bulemics do it? It takes a sad and twisted person to purposefully vomit day in and day out. The once or twice I throw up every other month has me wanting to take my life. More recently (see: 230 and 1000am), I think some funky avocado made its way into my JB roll, no cream cheese. I even went as far as saying, "uh oh, I think I may only like avocado with cilantro and lime cause this is not getting it *nom*" Yeah... my throat still hurts.

My trip to NYC was one of the best trips ever. I think mostly cause I went by myself and could do whatever I wanted. Not saying I don't like traveling with people but it seemed to be twice as fun with half the party. Add that to my cool ass vet uncle (Pops' baby brother) who was either at the hospital or making house calls and it was a dream come true. I spent money ONLY on food, got to see a ISHT ton of my dear friends, got my hair did and... got some grey Js. *swooning*

Yeah, back to school is around the corner. Valmart (said like a german) has put out the BTS boxes and I didn't appreciate that. But unlike last year, I'm not pressed or depressed abt what this year will bring. Actually, last year at this time, I was interviewing with DC and putting all my eggs into a DMV basket. This year? Let go and let God. Life is so much more peaceful when you adopt that mantra.

Jameil called me a drunk. Why? Cause I spent my whole Tally trip oohing and ahhhing over baby boys. Former BFFs have sons that are 10 days apart and I LOVE them so much! Lil K is the younger and more serious of the two. He's too cool already and maybe a stubborn handful with his lil Taurus self. Lil P is a charmer! All he does is giggle and babble! He's going to be a handful in a different way with HIS Taurus self!
Regarding their moms, Pops said their strollers are going to bump into eachother at Babies R Us and they will reconcile. Ok, TV ending.

Oh yeah, speaking of babies, the week I reactivated FB (for Jam & Rah's pics), I saw a high school classmate of mine is expecting her own little boy this November.

And since I mentioned Jam and Rah, ima need the new Mrs. W to cough up the post on how to plan a fun and fab wedding in 28 Days. That hoe weren't playing! Her goal achieving prowess is almost scary, y'all...

I am very excited abt my car payments. By paying a small $4 more than asked, I am taking my 60 month term down to 44 months. Oh yeah, I split my automatic payments up to twice a month (coincide with paydays). Seems less painful that way (to me).

Our dog, Koko Lopez has atopic dermatitis. She's itchy and scratchy all day :-( Poor Koko Chanel :-(

It took forever but I was able to pay a ticket, reinstate my license, get new insurance, and renew my tags. This was the first time I've ever had to do them myself! Yeah, the car is mine but Pops did it last year. I felt like such a big deal when it all was finally said and done. Can you imagine driving around with nan notta one part of your driving situation right? Chamillionaire had NOTHING on me... well, unless he had a gun, open container, and some drugs. I wasn't that dirty, sheesh. I'm a teacher guys!

I am going to start practicing my piano again. That and finish reading Zen. Then I will tackle its sequel, Lila. And let's see if I can manage one more trip to NY... I still have to food spots to try!

Alright y'all! TTYL!

Randoms

One of my children wrote down what his homie told him about a girl in my class. "Jermaine said you are sexse."

1. What do you know about "sexse"? How old are you that you used that word for a classmate???

2. Should I've reminded him about the trailing 'y' and how it sounds like 'ee'? i.e. "sunnY", "cloudY", "StaceY"?

3. I wonder how I should've responded... I don't talk sex with 5 y.o.

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Real talk, I thought I was going to get a ring this weekend. Drew made a big deal out of going to UM this weekend and got a hotel room at the most magnificent hotel I've ever been in, The Mayfair (waaaaaaaaaay prettier in person!)... for apparently no reason. But here's the kicker, when we checked out and got back to his place, he held my hand and said, "I'm looking for a stone for your ring."

*blink blink*

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Tima is starting to grow on me. Bump that, she has grown on me. I was sooooooooooooo ready to give her back! But guess who REALLY likes her?? Mom Dukes! Little does she know, she's getting her!

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I talk a big game about growing my hair but I reeeeeeallly like it "short". I'm starting to think the longest I'll grow it is chin-length. A graduated bob with the gentlest layers in the back sounds too chic! I can do the sleek look, I can do the roller wrap wavy look... I'm a fan!

Speaking of hair, my sister cut hers off. She really needed to. Her nape has not grown since her Sweet 16 when she first glued tracks to it. yeah. And if you know Mini Me, she STAYS with some weave in her hair; it never got a chance for fresh hair or a chance to rest. We shall see how long this will last.

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It hit me that if I still lived with my parents, I would be more than able to afford a new car. Like, an actual new car. I'd never buy a brand new car but if I wanted to, I could've. My rent alone takes two car payments. Then there's my ortho bill, cell phone, car insurance, and utilities. I need a two income household.

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Drew and I spent most of the weekend in Dade County. I so want to live there. While driving to UM, we looked at the pretty mediterranean houses and admired every last one. Then while on the topic, I asked if he wanted to own a house. He said yeah, so I asked why. He couldn't think of a reason. Then he was like, "Why DO we have to own a house? It's a nice idea but whose nice idea was it that it has to be ours?" My thoughts exactly. But, I do want a yard for children to play in wiffle ball in. And a driveway to put up a basketball goal. And the idea of renting a house sounds weird. Maybe when our first born turns 5, we'll buy a house. At the rate we're going, I'll holla at a mortgage at 40.

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I watched '16 & Preg.nant' for the first time this weekend. Wow. Wow.

Post Puppy Depression

If Tima is any indication of how I'll be when it's time to have children...

I attribute part of my baditude last week to Tima. Last week was our first week home and like a baby, she cried every two hours. 8pm, 10pm, midnight, 2am, 4am, and finally 6am when it was time for me to get up anyway. That was Sunday and Monday. Tuesday and Wednesday, it was every 3-4 hours. I am the Queen of Sleep. Being sleep deprived and dealing with 19 five & 6 year olds is not my idea of a good day or WEEK.

So not only did she wake me up all hours, but then the mess made while I was at work. I kept her in the bathroom but 8 hours of puppy bladder and bowels... *sigh*. Luckily, it was a small area but that didn't really make it better. I sometimes wish I didn't keep her in there cause that isht gets concentrated.

So now I'm sleep deprived, drained from teaching, and having to come home to clean my bathroom as if it's Saturday morning. Actually, I'm cleaning more than i would on a Saturday. I'm on my hands and knees pinesol-ing tiles. Yes, I'm wiped down the bathroom tile by tile. Her little dirty foot ass would walk in her mess so I was leaving nothing to chance.

And of course to clean the bathroom, I'd have to let her out. You already know once the bathroom is clean, there'd be something else for me to clean in the front room. It just never stops with her. You can take her out for 30 minutes, come in for 10 and there's a puddle of pee. You have got to be kidding me.

Drew says, "She's a puppy! She doesn't know any better!" Whatever, Koke and Russ weren't like this. He countered that with, "Y'all were in college when you had them. You had way more time to be home and patience." I'll give him that. But I'm not that person anymore.

Now besides the filth factor, her personality is off the wall. They say she's rott and beagle mix but I think jack russell and beagle. If you know anything about JR terriers, you'd know they are WIRED. The only time they turn off is when they are asleep. And they only sleep for a few hours at a time. Other than that, they're on 10, no 12. Ripping and running, and biting, and barking, and growling, and hopping, and jumping, and just being busy. I can't even put on some jeans without wrestling her for my pant leg. Or chasing her for my other sneaker.

Drew was being snarky when he said, "You want a puppy, but not the work that comes with it. What are you going to do with your children?" After chasing Tima down after she felt the need to explore her horizons via hedges and shrubs (bitch knew I couldn't reach her that way, freaking underground tunnel for puppies) AND cleaning up SEVEN puddles (she just didn't stop. I laid down FOUR puppy pads) I told him,

"Babies wear diapers. Babies don't run away. Families help when a baby is involved. If you're sleep deprived, it doesn't matter cause you're most likely on maternity leave."

Still, I really hope she isn't even the smallest indication of how I'll be. Whatever the case, she's way too aggressive and messy for me at this point of my life. I'm going to give her back, since I can.

#truthis

Those of you who tweet know what the pound sign means. If it didn't drive people crazy to have stream of consciousness tweets, this is what would be on there and not here... I guess it makes for another post.

#truthis I'm very sensitive about my dual college experience. I didn't want to go to Hampton but when I got there, I didn't want to leave. Don't get me wrong, I totally enjoyed my FAMU tenure and I'm eternally grateful for the top notch education I received but to this day, I remember at a convocation, the speaker told us to look to our left and look to our right. One of the people you looked at won't be here next year. I didn't think I'd be that person who was gone and it hurts cause I just wanted to start somewhere and finish there. But I hold fast to my "foundation". Imagine the person I'd be if I went str8 to FAM?

#truthis I sometimes want to be dating a black man. My total adult dating experience has been with Drew. And as "cool" as he is, he doesn't get a lot of things. I was rattled by the comments he made when reading my Essence, him not seeing the really big picture for us in regards to our 44th president, why there is a YBF and Essence, etc... it's not his fault but he obviously comes from a totally different paradigm

#truthis even though he wasn't good for me, I still think about 'him' ALL THE TIME. I don't even love this person and liked him rarely.

#truthis I'm very afraid of change. I admire people who get up and go and do but I could never imagine myself in their position. If I could do more with my life from my house, I'd be happy. But I don't want a degree from the Univ of Phoenix Online so I need to figure out what's next in my life

#truthis to piggyback off of the previous "tweet", I wish I wasn't as apathetic as I am. I just don't care about anything enough to go for it. yeah, I talk abt a master's but I'm living w/o one right? So between not wanting to rock my boat and being mostly okay with where I am...

#truthis (you guys already know this) I really don't like the Roots. or Talib (by himself)

#truthis I really miss my church in Tallahassee and haven't really been to church since Jan 2007. yeah, I've gone here and there, went in Hollywood a couple of times but from Aug 2002- Dec 2006, I must've missed 5 services at Saint Michael's & All Angels. I think I might go back to Tally for that church.

#truthis I never had a complex about my complexion. I didn't even know people had complexes till it was forced down my throat at HU. School Daze symposiums opened my eyes to some serious issues in black america. and reading this month's essence further cements my thought that WE keep it alive. not saying ignore it but do we have to talk about it every month?

#truthis I'm not an envious/jealous person. I remember the day when I got over being jealous. It was like a light switch; I said something aloud like, "Okay, no more" and that was it. To me, what's the point of jealousy?

#truthis I miss my dog Russell EVERYDAY. and I want another dog just like him.

#truthis I like jay-zee way more than I care to admit. waaaaaaay more. his wife too.

#truthis my allergy to spermicide was not the beat. I think about that dude I read the riot act to BEFORE I knew it was an allergic rx... *Kanye shrug* It was for the best in the long run cause I shole was scared to do anything for a looooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time!! God wanted me to be a good girl even though Satan and lust had other plans, LOL

#truthis I just assed myself out on this post.

Don't Shop While Hungry

BTW: I coied and asted the letter after o for this ost. don't feel like doing it now


I woke up this morning with an agenda.

eat breakfast
wash own hair.

i know this house and decide to look around to see what he have and don't have. Naturally, since I want to wash my hair, we have conditioners for days but no shampoo.



*sigh*

now I have to go to publix and buy some cause I try not to patronize the asian/arab stores who are getting away with highway robbery. also, sallie's is closed.

make a list: shampoo and mushrooms (for brekky)

as I'm driving to the store, I realized I can't find my tweezers and my eyebrows need some help.

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers.

Wait, I can't have a breakfast souffle with out fresh spinach!

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach.

and I'm almost out of salsa

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa.

since i pass the bread aisle to get to the beauty aisle, I might as well pick up some tortillas; I mean, I already have the salsa...

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas.

Well what's the point of tortillas if you're not going to make tacos?

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey

awww, I'm sure russ and coke would like some bones to chew on

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats

ooooh, who doesn't like to be brushed?

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush.

now i need black beans to make my tacos REALLY good!

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush, black beans

tweezers, tweezers... oooh. I need a pedicure.

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush, black beans, pumice stone.

Finally got the tweezers and now i need taco seasoning.

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, tortillas, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush, black beans, pumice stone, taco seasoning.

But wait, the kits are buy one, get one free. down goes the seasoning, black beans, and tortillas, up goes the soft taco and fajita kits! Now i need sour cream.

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush, pumice stone, two el paso kits, but one, get one free sour cream.

Cheese, por favor.

shampoo, mushrooms, tweezers, spinach, salsa, ground turkey, beef bones dog treats, two in one dog grooming brush, pumice stone, two el paso kits, but one, get one free sour cream, shredded cheese.


Damn.




do I want monterey jack cheddar or 4 cheese mexican blend?

the Purge

We already know that my lil sis is off to college. The baby got an A on her 1st quiz and I was toooooooooo excited for her!! I was like, "THE BABY GOT HER 1ST 'A' IN COLLEGE!! AWWWW, LAWD! ITS GOING BY TOO FAST!!!!"

she called me "extra and dramatic."

*batting eyelashes* Who me?

BTW: 8 years ago, when I was a college freshman (damn), I was dubbed 'Miss Drama' and not cause I was from Florida.

I do have pics of the exodus to north florida





Wait. Why am I here? I didn't tell you?? I've been elected dog-sitter emeritus! This time, mom told me where some of my old sneakers and socks are "just in case [I] want to take them for a walk".

face

So I'm here dog/house sitting for the parents who, on a whim, decide to take a vacay! OMG, who does that!?!? I guess when you have NO children in the house, no one to be responsible for, you can just up and go with your heart's desires. My roomie's parents decided to take a whale watching cruise in Canada. She called them on their cell and they just dropped it on her like that! Word? Is that how parents get down when the kids are away?! SIGN ME UP!

I'm in the room that was once mine... then around 8 years old, it became an "our" room... then it became a "her" room and now its a "storage" room; as is my brother's. Mom has cleaned this room and made beds and arranged shoes and folded clothes... its amazing. My pop took stanley's room and made it into his domain with music in all forms all over the place. Cassettes, CDs, ipods, DVDs, and a PC to store it all on. My parents are wilin'.

In the purge of our rooms, I am literally looking at 10 pairs of shoes I haven't seen in YEARS! one of them *tear* is I think, my 1st pair of Steve Maddens. I still see the white-out my dad used to write my name with on the sole. I wore them on the 1st day of school at Hampton!!! AWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! OMG, I was so embarrassed at how the 'rents tagged EVERYTHING with either a sharpie or a white-out pen!!!

There are also (I think) my 1st two pairs of pointy toe shoes (same shoe, different color patent leather. act like you know me a little bit),
one of MANY peanut-butter colored shoes I own (I LOVE that color shoe),
some silver wedges from when metallic was doing the damn thing,
some brocade pumps (wow Steve),
some round toe Steves (ewww. hate round toe. the price must've been too good),
my FAVE pair of purple shoes (I have 3. oh yeah, i also have that shoe in 'chocolate' and 'money green')
some Nine W shoes mom got me for my internship. Yeah, we knew I couldn't wear flip flops everyday.
wow. there are 3 pairs of boots (bone, peanut-butter, black) for those cold days in Tally and
some tie-up black heels.

*GASP* I JUST FOUND MY BLACK PATENT LEATHER FLIP FLOPS!!

I know that means nothing to you all, cause you know I have flip flops for days but, I had to settle for a cheap pair of flips b/c i lost this very dear pair. NO MORE CHEAP SHOES!! YAAAAAAAAAY!!!

okay, now i'm off to watch a L&O marathon :-)

my knee

and i'm still limping.


*pout*

and they're off

I've been elected to dog/housesit while the 'rents take the baby away to school!!! Can you believe it?!!? My BABY sister is going to college!!

Per FAMU... but I'm sure, per Mini Me as well, housing wasn't straightened out. As of last convo with BDK (Big Daddy Kutieboots), they (including MM) are in a hotel. Yeah... see, two nights ago, Pops and I asked MM what the deal is with her dorm; has she recieved her housing letter yet. She answered too quickly so I re-rephrased the question. "MM, did you get your housing letter in the mail?" the reply was so defensive, I already knew what was up. "Noooo! I talked to someone on the phone!"

Really?

Who here has been to college?
Yes, you in the back, X, Toni, Shani, Desy...

Who here has been to an HBCU?
Jameil, La, Rah, V Dizz, the two HU people up there...

Who here knows for a FACT, you need EVERYTHING in writing? Matter of fact, you need COPIES of what you have in writing.

Whatever the case, so glad I'm not there.



Onto brighter things, Drew got me a ruby ring. His birthstone, my finger... works for me!


Last thing.

I'm here watching the dogs. I decide to be nice and take them for a walk.

If you know anything about me, I barely walk to the bathroom. I'd rather wait till its unbearable, and then trudge to the bathroom.

My mom can't walk them too often cause Russell almost pulled her arm out of its socket chasing a squirrel, real talk.

And Russ dragged the ish out of my dad over some ducks around the way. So, walking around the neighborhood is something out of the ordinary for them and me.

1st- they are walking me. I don't know why I thought to do both at the same time. yes I do. Too lazy to make another trip for another dog. Plus whoever was left in the house would have a nervous breakdown.

2nd- they are peeing everywhere. come on! can we walk!? do we have to stop at every bush?!

3rd- the creatures crossed leashes right as there was a crack in the sidewalk. Between the tangle of leashes and faulty sidewalk, I trip and bust my ass. Well actually, my knee. I have a skinned knee!! What do I look like at 26 years old with a skinned knee!?!?! Not only my knee, but my big toe got scratched the fcuk up from the uplifted pavement and my big toe's knuckle took the fall pretty hard AAAAAAAAAAND, I broke my right hand's thumb nail. AAAAAAAAAAAAAND, I'm sure someone saw me!! The only good thing was, as I was falling and let go of the leashes to catch myself (which I didn't do, hence the knee), the dogs didn't run away as they are prone to do. They showed concern for their hurting owner *cue the "awwwwwwww"s*

I limped home to a house with no triple antibiotic :-(
My knee, toe, and knuckle is going to fall off from mad cow's disease or something!!


I would take a pic of my ring and battle wounds but, I'm at the parents house and damn near dial up will not be the death of me tonight. Love y'all!