Joy

I'm feeling it. (this was the first day I was in Coconut Grove and stuffing my face with ceviche and seared scallops)

Insecurity

Every once in a while, a few may creep into my psyche... actually, they are signed, sealed and delivered into my head by Lyds.


*blink*


 Anyways, I'm going on a inclusive excursion to DR with my crew (Lish, Liz and Boo Thang) the day school ends and you wanna know what i've heard since we decided to go (the week before Spring Break)?

 "OMG, I'm so fat!" (Liz is a 2/4 and Lish is a 6)

"OMG, I'm so pasty!"

"OMG, I'm so...!"












 It must suck to be a WG before swimsuit season.

Cold?

Him: Being friends makes it harder to breathe, so if you're ready to fly then just forget about me, but if you're willing to try then i'm willing to leap, out of the window and fall in love at your feet. i ain't the man you want me to be, i guess that's what's been bothering me.

Me: Can you not send your emo proxy, Drake?

Him: that's Big Krit

Me: ...

DMG's Gem

Him: I don't care if you're a Knix fan, I could care less

Me: Lies.

H: It's all your fault

M: watching my show...

H: Watch your eggs freeze to, bye

M: as soon as your grammar improves we can talk. homophones steal thugness

Home for the Holidays

and by "holidays" I mean spring break. I've never wanted a spring break so badly in my life. The System is killing me softly. I don't believe in it and I can't let money dictate my happiness. I laughed one time when Jameil was telling me about a spoiled colleague who once said something like, "it's not about money, it's about your quality of life." Well, I retract that laughter from 6 years ago cause daggummit, she's right!

Speaking of quality of life, I decided to spend a few days at my favorite place in the whole wide world: The Mayfair. But on my drive *giggling* down here, some hurtful words said to me just last week crept into my psyche and a single tear rolled down my face. 30 is a few weeks away and now I'm getting scared. All that "bring it on!" talk? That was in the past. I don't know what I'd do if I had more months but damn, can I get an extension on the twenties? I guess not.

I can always say I ended them in the most fabulous city in the world... I like that spin!

I digress at the word "fabulous".

I think because of my mini heartbreak, God saw fit to get me an upgrade. Even though everything is called a suite at the Mayfair, I have a real ass suite. Like, doors to separate rooms and everything. All I need is for that second bathroom to be kitchenette and I would never leave this place. I don't know what it is about this place but I am truly madly and deeply in love with this resort. Now that I look around, there's nothing extravagant, it's just that understated Miami glamour I like. Wood. Linen. White. Glass. Green. Orange. I'm so happy to be here right now, feeling like a queen and I'll be doubly excited when Kitty comes to join me tomorrow :-)

Life's too short. Do what makes you happy. And thaaaaasssss real!

angst.

Lord knows I didn't feel this way when I was a teen. Maybe cause when I was a teen, I was treated like a child...