Team Aiden

when I went to DFW in Feb, we talked several times. Of course, he was trying to come over and be Mr. Big to my Carrie. Specifically, that flashback scene she has of her and Big when they started their affair. yeah, I wasn't really feeling that. I think I may have led him on but I wanted to see what lengths he'd go to see me. Oh he was trying. The whole time I was there, we didn't see each other till I was on my way to the airport. He sat in the lobby till my driver came and we parted ways with a hug. When I got in the car, he text me,

"How come you didn't want to see me?"

I replied, "It's not that I didn't want to see you, I didn't want to see you the way you wanted to see me. Yo, that was 5 years ago. We aren't the same people. We were carefree college students. Now, we're adults in relationships. Why mess around for a faded memory?"

"Cause that memory was awesome. Yeah, we're different, but our passion might be the same"

"Really? Booooo... you know we can't really stand each other, right? We don't see eye-to-eye on ANYTHING. The only thing that could make you more opposite of me is if you're tall and white"

"Oh, like your boy? I would think you'd like that."

"You're funny, FB stalker. Anyway, I'll be back. We'll see what happens next time"

Next time was last week. I didn't let him know I was in town. He sent me a message on FB

"When you coming back to Texas?"

I didn't want to tell him I was in his state not even 48 hours ago...

"When I take my TX cert exam"

"Oh, I thought you were coming for another UTA visit, just checking"

Damn. UTA is so not on my agenda anymore. should reply with, "naw" but instead, I said

"I had an interview Saturday morning and I left the same day"

"Wow- like my bday Saturday? u ain't right"

I knew it was his birthday. and I thought about calling or texting but he doesn't call or text or even FB me on my birthday! and plus he's part of nat'l a-hole day. i don't like 4/10

"1. I was here for business. 2. you didn't invite me to your birthday party. happy belated 3. I'm always right"

that was a jab at our last text convo. he snapped at me over some paradigm isht. I told him if anything, we're both right but I'm def not wrong. Again, the bumping of the heads.

"I didn't know you'd be here. u be on that bs. it was never confirmed that you were coming"

are you mad? don't be mad.

"If I knew something was going on, I would've stayed longer"

I really think I would've. nah, I had to come home and take care of FaTima sooner than later.

"If I knew u were coming you would've know. you know what? you got it. i'ma let it go"

finally. he "broke up" with me. nothing more to say, besides,

"yep."

I actually feel good that he's removed himself. Him being in the back of my mind, wondering if we could re-live '04-'06 was #notagoodlook. The random texts, the trips to TX that could've been very detrimental to my psyche...

He's in the past for a reason. I'm just PRAYING he won't become my Aiden in the desert.