Part I: Agape

my dad
the best thing in the world to me. my dad is "so hip, even his errors are correct". i'm lying. he be making some mistakes that make me look at him like, "what were you thinking???" then i attribute them to him being a man. yo, i'd be my dad's friend even if we weren't related. just based on his music collection that i find is never ending, my pops is the coolest futhermucker i know.

my mom
brought me onto this world and everyday as i get older, i realize everything she's done was out of love. when my dad was out making a living as a recent graduate, for his wife and brand new baby, it was mommy who held us down. i used to be sooo mad at her. so mad. i felt like she ruined my life for the longest time but i am bomb and you know why? my mom made me that way.

my little sister
she is everything i want to be. yes she's 8 years younger but this girl is the coolest chick i know. so level headed, so focused, so determined. a little jazzy and spunky like her older sister; i'd take her anywhere with me cause she can hang with the best of them. b/c she was bullied in elementary school (that shit still chokes me up), she's soooo kind to everyone. she remembers what it was like to be teased for no reason and that's what makes her the most popular and loved girl i know.

my brother (when we were younger)
its sad to say but he hurt me hard this year. just as bad as JBB and Nigel. before he got here, my brother and i were best friends. BEST. I loved that boy more than anything on this earth, in this solar system, in this universe. i was his defender on the playground, i taught him how to blow bubbles, we learned how to ride bikes together. y'all, that was my heart. ask neechie abt the brother feeling. i don't know if i feel that way anymore. he makes me mad. i look forward to coming home and not seeing his car in the driveway. i enjoy cooking, inviting people over and him not touching ONE single item. what is that? that's NOT agape. but it used to be.

Andrew
y'all. if i could get every love song on this planet; in spanish, greek, croatian, and Ga; instrumentals and even the silent overtures, it wouldn't be enough. i read posts from X and think to myself, "yep...yep...that too, yep" can i just let you know some songs he puts on my mixtapes??

Breathtaker- martin luther
what can i say? i just want sit and be around you
undivide my attention and play in your hair
and i'll be by your side if you call me
to help ease your mind, soul, and body


Love, Love, Love- donny hathaway
Love love love you can't imagine
what you did to me aww baby
and love love your love everytime you smile
it goes through me all the time
Day by day i'm fallin more in love with you
And thats no lie, cross my heart and honey I hope to die
Cuz I'm not tryin to mislead ya believe me girl I really need ya


Find a Way- ATCQ
Messing me up, my whole head
Teasing me, just like Tisha, did Martin
Now look at what you're starting
Schoolboy's crush and it ain't on the hush
The whole world sees it but you can't
My peoples they complain, sit and rave and rant
Your name is out my mouth like an ancient chant
Got me like a dog as I pause and pant...

and on and on.

there is soooo much i want to do for this boy! i wish i could spoil him and and i so see what beyonce and children meant with 'cater to you'. can i cook for you? can i make you comfortable? what will it take to make you happy? just being near me? awwww, aren't you the sweetest thing ever?? omigosh i can only hope everybody has in their life someone like my best friend in the whole wide world. he is everything positive. EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. there is no-one who can compare to him and i would only be doing you a disservice by giving you my number b/c you know what? i bet you can't do it like him. and to think i've never seen him even remotely undressed but like bryan adams once said, i can see my unborn children in his eyes.

get it love.