so. We lost the mommy from the previous post. I moved out and realized I own nothing but the clothes on my back. Althea cut off two inches of hair and it's still too long. ABM came to NY last week. He asked if I wanted to see him. Sir, it'll take more than flowers to get back on my good side. I decided not to go to lion king with him. E for Effort but I still don't like you. I think the art teacher likes me. SHE tapped my ass and called my saucy. O_o I hope I survive this winter. I'd hate to hate NY again. I hope the school year continues on the positive note we started on. My class makes me happy, laugh, smile, feel good about life. I came to a SERIOUS MINDBLOWING realization when I was watching SNF with buddy i'll call Bogart. I want him to like me so I can be done with him. That thought was so ridiculously lucid and loud... snake dream, anyone?? I think that's bout it. Be safe in love and life, y'all.

Mommy

found out a few weeks ago the mother of one of my oldest and closest friends has cancer. woke up to a text sent at 324a that she's in the emergency room and upon discharge, hospice will be setting up in their house today.




hospice. today.





i'm hurting. for her.  me and Lyds aren't the best of friends but i never thought there would be a day when she wouldn't be here. i'm just filled with so many questions and i always feel so juvenile when it comes to death. i don't know what to say so i just burst into tears and them wipe them away quickly cause that's how it hits me. sneaky sucker punches that catch me off guard.



trying not imagine her mommy gone.  trying not to imagine anyone's mommy gone.