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He left no time to regret
kept his d!ck wet
With his same ole safe bet...
Me and my head high
and my tears dry
get on without my guy...
You went back to what you knew
So far removed
from all that we went thru...
and I tread a troubled track
my odds are stacked
I go back to...

My dating life in NYC has been interesting if nothing else. I was worried until I met a guy at a friend's house.  He made me feel like the first years with Andrew. We talked, bitched, laughed, drank, walked, smoked, read, TV'd, dined, argued, mourned, discussed, wii'd, stooped, taught, laid, charter school'd, everything. I hadn't felt this way in a long time. Stacey was ready.

Then two weeks ago I found out he's had a girlfriend since June. We met in May.  My world literally crashed. I felt like I was 14 and my boyfriend was hollering at everything in a dress. 19 watching my guy walk the next chick to his dorm room, like I was 20 and dealing with my boyfriend's apparent real girlfriend over the phone.  I felt like I was 21,  and boy who had the nerve to smell like Pearberry. Am I 22 again, seeing my Valentine hugged up on the next chick and looking at me like, "What??"?

nope.