Hood Mama Bear

my AT sent me a picture of one of our students with his new haircut (his dad sent the pic to her; yes, we are that tight with our families, they text us anything!).  A little Afro-Latino boy, he had a full mane of curly hair that was a mixture of his Hispanic dad and Black mom's texture.  Most of the time, it was in a low ponytail, sometimes it was corn-rowed and one time he wore it out.  Whatever the case, we laughed over the pic because now he looked like a member of a racially ambiguous 90s rnb group (LOL) instead of the J.Martinez we've grown to love!

Then the conversation took a turn.

She told me J wanted the haircut b/c 4 boys in our class don't want to play with him cause they think he's weird and they call him a girl and even gay.



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Wait, what??


and when she told me what four boys were doing the teasing, I went ape shit.

HOW DAAAAAAAAARE!?!?!? RETAINEE AARON? AND OTHER OBNOXIOUS AARON!? AND GANGLY ASS TARIQ?!?! AND NOSEBLEED MIKHAIL!?!?!?!?!?!?!??  OH BITCH!

then the hood mama in me calmed down and the big sister came out.

yo, my sister didn't smile for TWO YEARS while she was in elementary school? you know why?! because we had gaps and unfortunately for her, it wasn't cute in her generation.

SHE DIDN'T SMILE, Y'ALL.  

HOW ARE YOU IN 3RD GRADE AND YOU'RE SCARED TO LAUGH, TO BE HAPPY, TO SHOW JOY?! HOW ARE YOU IN 4TH GRADE AND YOU DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE!?!

so the fact one of my kindergartners went home, told his dad he wants to cut off his ponytail (mind you, dad has a ponytail too. J had a pony so he could be like his papi.) so other kids won't think he's weird cut me deep.  Please believe i'm having a talk with 4 sets of parents tomorrow... monkey ass lil boys done lost they mind... you have the wrong teacher for that isht...

but are we really starting the foolishness in kindergarten? have times changed that much that people aren't 'doodie-heads' anymore but actually called 'gay' and 'weird'?  what happened to, "YOU'RE NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE!" being the worst thing you can hear when you're 5 years old?  Not ready for this!!

BlackHole Son

Oh snap! I'm trippin!  Was the last time I really posted back in November??  Lord know I've had plenty to write about; I sahwee.

Anyway.

I'm never in the mood to hear janet. when she comes on my various pandora stations, i'm more likely to use a skip on her and definitely not give her a thumbs up.

social lurkers get on my nerves. all in the business and never none of their own.

manhattan gets less and less appealing to me each day. if brooklyn wasn't so boheme, i wouldn't leave. but alas, i need to get my glam fix and fab food somewhere. thank goodness it's only a 25 minute train ride away.

the pic bad girl riri posted on christmas day was all the fierceness i wanted in 2012. it was her, sitting on the hood of a car, smoking a cig (gross) and chris brown was standing in front of said car. do you, riri. if you like it, i love it.

i have three more tattoos on deck.  one just came to me while listening to a ninasimoan song. that actually might be next... and on my arm.


I KNOW.




i love how everyone is all gung-ho about YOU cutting YOUR hair, don't nobody ever want to cut their own hair... I did cut mine and I think i'm going to keep it here. it's a graduated bob. jet-black and i love it.

i got a wii for Christmas. black. thought about naming it akon.

i wore black leggings and a blousy black tee with a cut up back to breakfast with my dad over Christmas break. he LOVED my outfit. it made me love him even more.

i wear other colors besides black. i've been digging jet, onyx, and obsidian as well.


and eggplant.

lastly, a quiet resolution I made to myself was to get that old thing back.
i want to play piano and tennis regularly. just like the good ole days.
but, i don't like keyboards, not even 88-key weighted ones and it's too cold to play tennis.
haters gon hate.